Hanṣadūta Svāmi, GBC-Śrī Laṇkā

Hansadūta Svami, GBC-Sri Lanka

My Dear Srila Prabhupada,

I cannot write anything that will properly glorify you. I am a condemned sinful creature. Somehow I was born with two hands and legs and have adopted the dress of a devotee as your disciple, but there is not a minuscular particle of sincerity or understanding in my heart.

I wonder how it is that I have passed so many empty days in your movement, surrounded by hundreds and thousands of your pure devotees without serving them properly, and still be allowed to continue. Your mercy is surely great. The mercy of your devotees is carrying me along back home, back to Godhead, although I am completely worthless and disqualified.

I cannot ask to be picked up as one of the most fallen in this world because you have already done that by your mere glance. I like to think that I might one day be accepted by your devotees as one of their devotees.

My words are empty and pretentious, but I continue to write this offering because I have no other alternative than to go through the motions and expressions of a devotee, hoping, like an alchemist trying to turn iron into gold, that Your Divine Grace will fill my empty words with spiritual life.

Dear Prabhupada, no one knows who you really are and where your will go when your work on earth is done. How will I be able to keep hold of your lotus feet and remain free from the attraction of material energy which bewilders even Brahma, the engineer of this universe? Therefore I think that you must make some special arrangement for me, because I am completely helpless and dependent upon you.

Your humble servant,

Hansadūta Svami
GBC-Sri Lanka

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