Antya 1.142

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একস্য শ্রুতমেব লুম্পতি মতিং কৃষ্ণেতি নামাক্ষরং সান্দ্রোন্মাদ-পরম্পরামুপনয়ত্যন্যস্য বংশীকলঃ ।
এষ স্নিগ্ধঘনদ্যুতির্মনসি মে লগ্নঃ পটে বীক্ষণাৎ কষ্টং ধিক্ পুরুষত্রয়ে রতিরভূন্মন্যে মৃতিঃ শ্রেয়সী ॥ ১৪২ ॥

ekasya srutam eva lumpati matim krsneti namaksaram

sandronmada-paramparam upanayaty anyasya vamsi-kalaḥ

esa snigdha-ghana-dyutir manasi me lagnaḥ pate viksanat

kastam dhik purusa-traye ratir abhūn manye mrtiḥ sreyasi

SYNONYMS

ekasya-of one person; srutam-heard; eva-certainly; lumpati-take away; matim-the mind; krsna iti-Krsna; nama-aksaram-the letters of the name; sandra-unmada-of intense madness; paramparam-a shower; upanayati-brings; anyasya-of another; vamsi-kalaḥ-the sound vibration of the flute; esaḥ-this third one; snigdha-giving love; ghana-dyutiḥ-lightninglike effulgence; manasi-in the mind; me-My; lagnaḥ-attachment; pate-in the picture; viksanat-by seeing; kastam dhik-oh, shame upon Me; purusa-traye-to three persons; ratiḥ-attachment; abhūt-has appeared; manye-I think; mrtiḥ-death; sreyasi-better.

TRANSLATION

Experiencing previous attachment to Krsna [pūrva-raga], Srimati Radharani thought: "Since I have heard the name of a person called Krsna, I have practically lost My good sense. Then, there is another person who plays His flute in such a way that after I hear the vibration, intense madness arises in My heart. And again there is still another person to whom My mind becomes attached when I see His beautiful lightning effulgence in His picture. Therefore I think that I am greatly condemned, for I have become simultaneously attached to three persons. It would be better for Me to die because of this."

PURPORT

This verse is from Vidagdha-madhava (2.9).

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