vārāṇasī-vāsa āmāra haya sarva-kāle
sarva-kāla duḥkha pāba, ihā nā karile"
vārāṇasī-vāsa—residence at Vārāṇasī; āmāra—my; haya—there is; sarva-kāle—always; sarva-kāla—always; duḥkha pāba—I will suffer unhappiness; ihā—this; nā karile—if I do not execute.
"I shall have to reside at Vārāṇasī the rest of my life. If I do not try to carry out this plan, I shall certainly continue to suffer mental depression."
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