prana-raksa lagi' yeba karena bhaksana
taha khana apanake kahe nirveda-vacana
prana-raksa lagi'-to maintain life; yeba—whatever; karena bhaksana—he ate; taha khana—eating that; apanake—to himself; kahe—said; nirveda-vacana—words of reproach.
Whatever he ate was only to keep his body and soul together, and when he ate he would reproach himself thus.
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