śrī-madana-gopāla more lekhāya ājñā kari'
kahite nā yuyāya, tabu rahite nā pāri
śrī-madana-gopāla—the Madana-mohana Deity of Vṛndāvana; more—me; lekhāya—causes to write; ājñā kari'-by giving the order; kahite—to say; nā yuyāya—is not befitting; tabu—still; rahite—to remain silent; nā pāri—I am not able.
Śrī Madana-mohana Deity of Vṛndāvana has given the order that is making me write. Although this should not be disclosed, I disclose it because I am unable to remain silent.
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