'pailun vrndavana-natha, punah harailun
ke mora nileka krsna? kahan mui ainu'?
pailun—I got; vrndavana-natha—the Supreme Lord of Vrndavana; punah—again; harailun—I have lost; ke—who; mora—My; nileka—took away; krsna—Lord Krsna; kahan—where; mui ainu—have I come.
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu said, "I found Krsna, the Lord of Vrndavana, but I have lost Him again. Who has taken My Krsna? Where have I come?"
These are the feelings of Srimati Radharani. First Lord Caitanya felt that He had been taken to Vrndavana, where He saw Krsna's rasa dance with the gopis. Then He was brought to Kuruksetra to see Lord Jagannatha, His sister (Subhadra) and Lord Balarama. Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu lost Vrndavana and Krsna, the master of Vrndavana. At this time, Caitanya Mahaprabhu experienced divyonmada, transcendental madness in separation from Krsna. At Kuruksetra, Krsna displays His opulence, whereas in Vrndavana He is in His original position. Krsna never goes even a step away from Vrndavana; therefore Kuruksetra is less important for the gopis than Vrndavana.
Although devotees who worship Krsna in opulence (His Vaikuntha aspect) may prefer to see Lord Krsna at Kuruksetra along with Subhadra and Balarama, the gopis want to see Krsna in Vrndavana, performing the rasa dance with Srimati Radharani. Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu showed by practical example how one can cultivate the mood of Radharani and the other gopis in separation from Krsna. Devotees absorbed in this mood do not like to see Krsna anywhere else but Vrndavana. Therefore Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu lamented, "I found Krsna in Vrndavana, and now I have again lost Him and come to Kuruksetra." Unless one is a very highly advanced devotee, he cannot understand these intricate feelings. The author of Sri Caitanya-caritamrta, however, has tried to explain this divyonmada as far as possible, and it is our duty simply to appreciate it as far as possible. Therefore the author has made the following request in verse 11:
tate visvasa kari' suna bhavera varnana
ha-ibe bhavera jnana, paiba prema-dhana
"My dear readers, simply try to hear this description with faith and love. That will help you to understand transcendental ecstasy, and at last you will achieve love of Godhead very easily."

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